I take the same route to work every-single-day. There is the rare occassion when I have to detour around farm equipment, flooding, or road work, but for the most part, it's the same route every-single-day. I love my drive to work. It's back country roads almost the entire way into my office....only the last 2 miles (of the 22 mile trek) is moderately "city driving"..... and even what folks here call "city driving" is a piece of cake after making the commute for so many years in New Orleans.
I've seen lots of critters on my drive into work over the last six years. Coyotes. Hawks. Bunnies. Raccoons. Skunks. Deer. Possums. (Is there supposed to be an "s" on the end of that ?? Not sure...) And I swear I even saw a wolf once.
My favorite ones to see, however, are the hawks. They are so regal - so powerful - so majestic. And it's crazy, but sometimes when I'd see them perched on telephone poles or in lower branches of the trees, I'd slow down or even stop to get a better look at them..... and they would just stare knowingly back at me. They didn't seem afraid or bothered by my stopping. I wouldn't get out of my truck or anything, I'd just admire them for a few minutes and then drive on. I decided that, whenever I saw a hawk on my way to work, that was God's way of telling me it was going to be an okay day. I figured He knew how much I enjoyed seeing those beautiful animals and how being able to stop and look them in the eye for a few seconds from time to time comforted me, so He placed them along my route just to confirm that He was present.... that I was going to be ok because I could physically see Him there, in the form of these hawks.
About a year ago, the hawks disappeared.
Now, I'm sure they're still around, but they're no longer perched along my route to work. None in the summer. None in the spring. None in the autumn. Not even in winter when they'd been most prevalent before. None ever. I can't recall the last time I saw a hawk on my way to work.
Where have you gone, Lord ? Why have you taken the hawks from me ? I NEED YOUR ASSURANCE! I NEED CONFIRMATION THAT I'M NOT ALONE IN THIS! DOES THIS MEAN YOU'RE NOT STANDING ALONGSIDE ME EACH DAY NOW? WHERE ARE YOU AND WHAT DID I DO WRONG???
Human beings - especially us Christian human beings - can be so selfish. We grow used to the comfort of His presence, so we expect proof of it constantly. We grow ambivalent to His blessings, so we expect them to continue even when we take them for granted. We grow dependant on His constant salving of our wounds, so we expect instant relief when we're hurt or angry. We grow tall in a shallow stream when we can see Him every second, so we fall over very quickly when a strong wind blows.
God didn't take the hawks away from me. He sent them to people who need them more than I do. I'm ashamed that I so quickly felt deserted by my Heavenly Father who is ALWAYS so faithful to me. Forgive me, Father, for my doubt.
I don't need to "see" proof of His presence every day on my way to work, because I already know - WITHOUT SEEING - that HE IS THERE. You know, it's almost like I have faith or something.
Thank you, Master, for when I see the hawks. And thank you, Savior, even more, for when I don't.